Monday, February 11, 2008

Breathe in, Breathe out.

We're almost there. It's almost done. I'm so ready for it to be done. I'm beginning to lose count of the "nervous breakdown" moments I have felt in the past week or two. There's times when I literally just stop, close my eyes, take a deep breath, say a little prayer, and keep pressing on. I feel like I'm running a race.

This weekend has been one of those extremely busy, yet unfortunately unproductive ones where you look back and wonder what the heck you did that made the time fly by so fast. Friday we met up with Rob's friend Ryan and his new girlfriend Stephanie - that was pretty confusing all night... :o) But we had a blast. We went and ate at Ethyl's (delicious!) and then went bowling at the new Brunswick Zone bowling alley (beautifully smoke free!) where Rob relived his days of being 6-time junior league bowling champion and putting everyone (well, me...) to shame. It was so much fun!

Saturday, I woke up to an absolutely beautiful day (I think it hit 65 degrees?). I took my babies for a walk. I love walking my dogs, but I'm too intolerable to cold to do it when it's below 35 degrees outside. Guys, I don't shiver, I convulse. Seriously. So, the puppies had a fabulous day and went home to take long naps after expending so much energy. Then Rob and I took his aunt Camille who was in town from Chicago to see the house. She loved it! They've got the doorknobs on as well as the stopper things. Not much else has changed though (e.g. my list has yet to be acknowledged - they still have time though!). Then Mom and I went shopping at the mall for a few things and I came home to go out to eat with Rob's family for his grandmother's birthday. She turned 79 this year (I think...)!

Sunday, I got up for church - running late again... and then went to work for the afternoon. Boring. Rob came over last night and we just bummed. Not very productive.

That's what I did, but here's what is causing me such mental distress... Tracy, our loan officer, called and said he wasn't sure if the loan was going to go through (my worst nightmare). He said we are great candidates (we both practically have perfect credit and Rob has no debt to speak of), but they are being EXTREMELY picky with the market the way it is. Awesome. So, he says he needs to re-figure a couple of things, get some updates on Rob's account balance and try taking me off the loan. This brings us to point number two. I hate my financial status right now. It sucks. I work when I can, but come on people, I'm a student. I'm POOR. I'm not a very good contributor to the newlywed fund, but I can't help it if Lindenwood is sucking the life out of me. So, my financial status is hurting us more than helping us... go me. That makes me feel loads better about how much I don't help out to begin with. Once I get out of school it will be different. Rob is such a good sport about everything too. He's the best and just listens to me and my little pity parties telling me he loves me no matter what. :) That's why I love him!

So, we get that figured out and now we're playing the waiting game again, hoping the loan goes through at our pretty good interest rate. Say a prayer everyone.

So, I just add that to the list of things constantly flowing through my thoughts all the time and try and make a habit of writing that mental list down every once in a while.

By the way, I apologize for the Debbie Downer posts lately, but I have to vent somewhere...